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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:50:51 GMT
Kara had been really busy working at sanctuary she hadn't seen or heard anything from rain in a couple of days she prayed that everything was ok. She hoped that she had done nothing wrong she thinks back the last time there were together and couldn't remember doing anything wrong.
Kara had called him and left a voice yesterday and left a few text but got nothing in return. She returned to cleaning tables lost in her head when she turned around with a handful of dishes and walked right into someone dropping and breaking all the dishes in her hands. Kara felt foolish and didn't even bother to look at who she ran into. *Bending down to clean up the glass.*
" I'm so sorry I didn't see you."
Seeing a hand cover hers she finally looks up amd gasps. Seeing his smiling face she wanted to throw herself into his arms but stopped herself where had he been? he hasn't spoke to her in 4 days. She was glad he was ok and he seemed happy to see her but she was kind of hurt and she let him see it in her eye.
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:53:32 GMT
Rayne Runningwolf He knew she was going to be pissed he knew it as soon as he seen her she looked so upset and fragile and about to cry at any moment and that is soon as her eyes catch his eyes the sadness poured out of her he's never seen her so sad since he's known her. It was just so hard for him to explain what was wrong he didn't do it on purpose.
" not what do you think Kara I promise you it's not anything bad or anything with anybody else it was just me and something that's wrong with me it had nothing to do with you and I'm sorry I couldn't call you"
he ran his fingers through his hair frustrated because he didn't know how to explain what he was trying to say and you can tell that she was getting mad to
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:54:11 GMT
Kara looked at him and tried very hard no to cry he looked extremely frustrated but it still didn't make up for the fact that he didn't even message her anything she didn't care that he really couldn't speak to her but God even just a text message to let her know we was ok. It was like he just stop communicating with he.
She grabbed the dishes she started walking back to the kitchen she did not want to do this in the bar. She could already hear her uncles growling knowing that she was upset as she moved back towards the kitchen rain followed her. After tossing the broken dishes in the trash she goes to the media room so they could talk. She sits down on couch she looks at him again.
" Look i was worried you were there one day and gone the next. I had no clue what happened. Ok so you couldn't call me fine but shit you couldn't text me just say to say you ok. You just can't do that to me,"
Kara had really tried to not to cry but to her dismay she felt a tear slide down her face.
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:54:47 GMT
Rayne Runningwolf He could hear the pain in her voice when he seen the tears so I don't her face he think he felt his heart break for her.
" I couldn't text you because I broke my phone I'm going to tell you what happen again I don't want to talk about it again I don't want you to ask questions I don't want to hear nothing about it again I came here to get you because I need you. I didn't come any sooner because I didn't trust myself the other day I had an extremely bad nightmare when I woke up my entire room was destroyed the furniture was broken the lamp was smashed the clothes were all over the place it look like a tornado I don't remember a single thing of it I thought for hours and hours and still nothing. I couldn't come to you. I didn't know what to tell you OK I didn't know how to tell you I didn't want to see the look that I'm seeing in your eye right now. Don't you think I feel fucking horrible too I feel like my heart is being ripped out of my fucking chest. But I knew that I wasn't safe enough to be around you and I didn't want any harm to come to you so I stayed away I tried to call you I tried to text you it didn't work and then I ended up smashing my phone because I just couldn't get the words that I need to seat you out. I'm fucked up OK I know that and if that is going to make you cry all the time or make you sad then I need to walk away now. I can't hurt you like this that is why I stayed away because I didn't want to hurt you anymore than I already have. Trying I'm trying so fucking hard but you're pulling a motions out of me that I've never felt before and that I've never experienced and I don't know how to handle him with all the other shit that goes through my body and all the other emotions that I feel I am used to pain and suffering and heart ache all these happy and emotions are pushing them away and it's working it's amazing. But sometimes things get dark I don't know how to explain it to you when I don't know how to tell you any other way."
He flopped down on one of the chairs and read his hands through his hair holding his head down he squeezed his hair feeling the pain making sure that he was a weekend this was really happening. What the fuck was wrong with him.!
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:55:14 GMT
She looked at him feeling a whole new wave of pain at the agony she hears his voice. He told her before he had problems and she understood that but this this was not OK and she was really mad. He should've come to her she could've helped.
" bullshit there's no reason why you should of stayed away. I already told you before I'm a hell of a lot stronger than what I look. I'm tired of you using that as an excuse in the end you know you're not gonna hurt me . And the look on my face now is because you were gone it's not because of your nightmare it's because your own fear why couldn't you just trust me and trust yourself? You caused me more pain by blocking me out then anything else you could've done.
I made it very clear that I would stand by your side and I would help you but I can't do that if you were going to treat me like a child and hide every time you have a bad day that is not how this works. You know what be a man so what if I make you feel emotions you never felt before talk to me about it don't hide that makes you a coward."
Kara felt horrible for the words that were coming out of her mouth but this is what he needed he needed to see that she was not gonna back down that she was not some child that she could handle anything he threw out.
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:55:52 GMT
Rayne Runningwolf His head jerked up at her words. A coward she has no idea. He jumped out of his chair and stood directly in front of her little bit taller than her he looked down at her.
" you have no fucking clue what I've been through or what I've dealt with. I am the furthest thing from a coward that you could possibly ever think of. You want to know what's wrong with me I'll tell you what's wrong with me I have nightmares. I have nightmares so fucking bad they make me want to cry. My nightmares are about children and I couldn't see that we're going down directly in front of me little kids like your cousins with their little bodies filled with bullets reaching out for me running to me and I wasn't fast enough to save them. And that's only the half of it. So you have no fucking clue what a coward is! you can call me a coward if you want but I forgot until I couldn't fight no more that's not a fucking coward."
He walked away from her turned around and put his hands up on the walls and let his head hang between he practiced his breathing took a few deep breath and tried to settle himself. Fuck fuck fuck this is the last thing that he wanted to do he didn't want to fight and here he is screaming at her for no fucking reason
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:57:03 GMT
Looking at him hang his head she knew he was fighting a battle inside himself the problem was he didn't have to he needed her he even said it but now he really needed to act like it .
" How am I supposed to know what you've done and what you haves gone though. You don't tell me. I only see the now not your past and what I see is a coward. Maybe that's the wrong word and I'm sorry if you took offense to that but I'm standing here in front of you ready to fight your demons with you and you run the first time it gets bad instead of coming to me and letting me help you you said so yourself when you see me it calms you let me do that for you!"
Kara heard and felt his pain as he yelled at her she had not intended to push him this far but God he needed to face it he needed to be able to talk to someone it was eating him alive. she wanted to be there for him so if he wanted to yell he could yell but he was was going to face.
Kara walked up behind him and pulled his arm until he turned to face her.
" i'm sorry you don't get to hide anymore I know you have nightmares and now that I've heard what they are I'm sorry no one should have to see that and have to relive it in their mind ever time they sleep. Now I can understand why you have trouble sleeping but keeping that inside only made it worse and you're letting it control you. If you think I'm gonna let you walk away because you're being thick headed you have another thing coming. I will not let you!"
Feeling frustrated she pushed rain against the wall forcing him to look her in the face. Making him see the tears and the emotions written on her face. So he could see she truly ment what she said. " So what is it going to be are you going to let me in or you gonna fight it?"
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:57:45 GMT
Rayne Runningwolf God she was so damn stubborn he didn't even know how to let her and he's already told her so much more than he's ever told anybody else beside his brother his brother knew everything new all his nightmares all his harbors his brother was there do you experienced it with him he almost died with them. So his brother had nightmares just the same but somehow he managed to handle the much better than rain.
"Fuck Kara, I don't know how OK I don't know how to let anybody and I don't know how to talk about what I see and feel it is just there. my brother knows because he was there so he feels it and he seen it and he knows what happen until he passed out from his gunshot wound. I would love to tell you everything and have you help me but I don't know how."
he felt like such a useless piece of shit whining and crying to a woman that he just started dating. why the fuck would she even want to stick around and made no sense.
Herarms were still around him when he slid down to the floor he had to pick his leg up so that he could Lightstree arms were still around him when he slid down to the floor he had to pick is like up so that he could lay it street. He put his head down in his hands to try to hide the tears are falling down his face.
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:58:19 GMT
Sliding to the floor with her arms wrapped around him she watched as he tried to hide the tears she sees sliding down his face. No she would not sit and watch him cry. She wanted to be the light in his darkness not make things worse. Kara slid infront of him putting her hands on his face she made him look at her tears and all.
" I'm sorry for fighting with you but I won't take back what I said. Don't you see what you did? You opened up and spoke to me. You told me about your nightmares but God I had to push so hard, I had to be the bad guy. I'm here because I care about you and I want to be with you. Do you really want to be with me?"
It would kill her if he said no but she needed to know if this is want he really wanted. She would fight for him till the ends of the earth if he truly wanted her. She would work with him though anything and stand by his side but she will not sit back when he has a bad day he can't shut her out when thoses are the times he needs her most.
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:59:00 GMT
His head snapped up so fast at her word auditor in the nose thank God she pulled back quick enough. This was his crossroad he either said the right thing and took a right turn or said the wrong thing and took a left turn his crossroad was staring right in his face and he needed to make the right decision.
" I have never in all my life love a woman the way I love you in the short period of time that we've been together you have became more to me than anybody else I have told you more about me then I have told anyone even my brother. I want to be with you I want you I want everything about you I would marry you right fucking now if I could but I know that's not your way of life and that's OK I can handle that. We can wait and see what happens but I will have her walk away from you. We may fight and we may argue and we may want to kick each other's asses never leave you. I'm a fighter I have for my whole life I will always fight I never give up I'm too stubborn but please to ever give up on me."
He took her face in his hands and kissed her lips so gently they both had tears in their eyes they both had tears running down her cheeks this is the first time he's ever cried in front of a woman and he didn't even fucking care all you cared about was making her happy and bringing up beautiful smile back to her face.
" I did fuck up and I am so sorry, I am going to tell you now I'm going to fuck up many times over so prepare yourself now because I fucked up shit all the time and I have no idea what I'm doing with you. I don't know nothing about relationships. I do know one thing though! I want you."
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 5:59:39 GMT
" That's all I needed to hear. I will stand by you and fight with you as much as it takes but I will not give up! Your mine I chose you and I will always chose you! I can deal with your fuck ups but don't you ever cut me out like again! Do you understand? Next time have Dasan or Sunshine call me. I would rather know whats going on amd be worried then know nothing at all."
She was happy he wanted this and thats all she needed to know. Getting a Big Smile on her face she crawled into his lap placing her hand over his heart and looked him in the face.
" I love you! And I'm not going anywhere."
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Post by Karapeltier on Apr 3, 2016 6:00:13 GMT
Rayne Runningwolf He stared at her eyes almost fucking out of his head it's the first time she's ever said it like that with so much passion behind it. It took a toll on him he was so shocked about it he's never really heard somebody say that to him in a loving manner Like this. He wrapped his arms tightly around her I'm rested his forehead against hers this was the easiest way for him to talk to her it felt like they were in their own little bubble.
" I love you Kara! you have changed my whole world turned it upside down and put me my ass you are unbelievable and I love everything about you."
he adjusted her so that they were both laying on their side in the huge plush chair that was in the movie room it was more like a giant pillow but it worked perfect for what they were doing right now he wrapped his arm around her and use his other arm to rub up and down her bac he adjusted her so that they were both laying on their side in the huge plush chair that was in the movie room it was more like a giant pillow but it worked perfect for what they were doing right now he wrapped his arm around her and used his other arm to rub up and down her back they didn't talk much after getting everything out in the open. He did just want he wanted , He put his hands all over her beautiful body above her clothing he slowly just caressed her and kissed her. It reminded him of how lucky he was to have someone that cared about him so much about him that she would fight.
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